Snow, Its Been Awhile

Wow I did not even realized that I have not blogged in a long time! GASP! I guess you could say that I have been really busy recently with school and such I really have not had time to at least sit down at the computer and blog a little bit, hey what can you do. Hmm lets see I do not have much to talk about today. Just wanted to get a blog out asap when I actually have time.

Well lets see I do not know how much I will be able to blog in a couple weeks, hence because finals is coming up and my time will be devoted to that it will seem. What else oh yeah did I mention a week from this thursday right now as we speak I will be on my way to the great state of Florida. What is better than going to Florida a week over winter break, when everyone else is suffering up here with the cold and the snow. Speaking of snow, we have gotten a little bit of snow this past week, which I am not going to complain about at all. I guess snow is really okay for me until like mid February , then I just get sick of it. I do not know anyone who likes all that crap on your car for months ick! But it should be a fun time, because I am going with my family and my girlfriend is also going with us, so that should be really really exciting. A solid week with seeing her constantly pretty much 24/7 lets just hope by day 6 I am not totally sick of her I do not want to be around her anymore.

I must admit I was a little worried that since we knew that we were going that she would not be able to go because if she got a job if that would interfere with things. But thank goodness it has all worked out. I guess that is all I have for this time, I will leave you with a video url that I came across today and would like everyone to see.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYVQooRSlzg

ENJOY!

Sadness..

Wow I can not believe it is almost December already wow time really does fly when you get old. It just seemed like yesterday it was January , you know what they say do not blink. Today I have recently realized that my life will most likely going to change in just a matter of weeks, heck even days. It is not really a big change, but I have been so lucky in having every thing I have always wanted recently.

I guess what is going to change is as a matter of fact, soon I will not be able to see my girlfriend as much as I would like. Because she will be starting her job babysitting for the time being until a nursing job becomes available. I really have no clue how I am going to react to it, because quite simply I have been lucky. We got together in the end of spring beginning of summer so it being summer I could see her almost every single day, as long as I wanted it seemed like. It really have lasted up till this point. Even though during the week I do not see her on certain days , some days I get to which includes weekends. It has honestly been really really nice more than I can ever ask for. It had to end sometime but I do not want it to end now, I wish it could go on forever. But the more time goes on the harder and harder it will be. I will be underestimating that I am scared, I am horrified.

I am thinking that it will be like this forever that we will never get to go back to the way it once was, so we both have to take advantage of everything that we have. But I know that we will both be fine because I have gone through this before and I did get through no matter how much it hurt me. It just makes you enjoy the time that you both have together, no matter what. I guess it will also be hard because I have recently realized that in the next couple of weeks is going to be really busy for me because of finals coming up so that also means I will not be able to see her as much, and that makes me sad.

That is the end of my depressing post, until next time..

Scared..

Have you ever just lay down some where and began to think to yourself about a whole bunch of things, and eventually it scares the living crap out of you. I have done this countless times before and it just happened again today. I began thinking about death, for example how am I going to die, what is it going to feel like, if I die right now will I make it to heaven. All those things just freak me out to no end. I guess if you would ask me one thing that I am afraid of it would have to be the fear of dying. It is scary because really you do not know how you are going to pass away, heck you could get shot, stabbed, or just die of old age.

But through everything what freaks me out the greatest is I know I will make it with my heavenly father when I die, I just can not see that it is going to be for eternity. I mean eternity seems like a long long time, your spirit will continue to live forever. I guess what I am trying to say is won't we eventually get bored someday? Run out of things to do? I have been alive for 21 years now and that is not even on the timetable how long I will be in heaven and I thought 21 years was a long time. I do not know maybe that is bad of me but won't we run out of things to do. But along with that, who will I meet in heaven when I eventually die, my best friends, famous people?

Maybe all of this is Satan trying to get to me that the afterlife is not that great. I must admit I have been aloof from God lately. I really have no excuse , for example I have been getting really mad over stupid things that I usually do not get mad about. That just seals the fact that I need to have a relationship with God and really mean it this time. I have taken so many things for granted because I have everything that I have always wanted. But I know for a fact at any time God has the power to take that away from me. I believe I should re-surrender to my heavenly father and for fill his destiny for me, and finally be the christ follower he wants me to be, before it is to late.

A Very Potter Blog

Hey look it is Monday again! Meaning it is time for another blog, hmm trying to figure out what blogging is all about I found out I should not put a time table on when I am going to blog. I am just going to write one when something comes to me. Like now for example my mind now a days is full of Harry Potter excitement.

Mainly because the date is coming up when Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part One is coming out at theaters worldwide. I have been waiting for that date for a year or maybe more. It is probably my favorite book of the series which means hopefully the best movie. But who knows with hollywood anymore right. Do not get me wrong the past movies have been completely wonderful but to me they always was missing "something" that I always could not put my head on. These last two have the most action in other movies in the past, drama, etc. Hopefully everyone will do the book justice just like they said they would.

With all the excitement that comes out with the last movie coming out, it isn't always peaches and cream I am going to be completely sad when eventually when part 2 comes out. I am not going to lie Harry Potter has been a very very large part of my childhood and I miss that honestly. I can say I would feel empty without it in my life, it is really what got me into the love of reading books. But I really miss reading books I been not doing that recently because with college I have not had enough time to do all the things that I wanted to do.

Its nuts that I can tell you exactly how I came upon Harry, I was honestly introduced by a library person at the Gnadenhutten Public Library. I came in with my mom one day looking for a book to read, I was having a terrible time finding a book. Eventually the person came over to me and my mom and asked us if we have ever heard of this book. She eventually held up the book, in my mind I said to myself hmm this looks interesting, I asked her what it was about and she told me it was basically a child that goes to a wizard school and learns magic. It sounded so interesting to me I had to get the book. Pretty much the rest of it is history. I become so involved in the world of Harry Potter, but that does not mean that I was addicted to it I just liked the books. I guess it worked for my mom to because she could see how excited I was about reading. After every book that came out I had to get my hands on it, and read it. I honestly try to read books at a slow pace so I can absorb the material but I was consumed with the books. I finished one of the biggest books in just three days, reading on and off during the day.

The rest is history so to speak so Harry in short made me a reader imagine that huh. To think that just in a matter of years it is all going to end makes me sad beyond belief. My childhood gone just poof. I usually not a emotional person but I can be in what I believe in. I just have a feeling in my gut at the end of Part 2 I will just leave the theatre crying. At least I will not be the only one who knows I might even clap at the end if it is awesome. I guess we all have to wait and see on 9/19/10..

Oscar anyone? Maybe not

Sick Sick Sick

I am sorry for not blogging so soon, this week has been uneventful for me, obviously what have I done all wek you ask. Pretty much just lay on the couch and try to take it easy as I can. Because I am pretty sure I had the intestinal flu right now it stinks majorly. It also stinks that I really cannot eat to much without feeling the bloated feeling when you eat to much in sight of things I really have not. A couple of days ago I had some serious vomiting issues that I will not go into detail here to save everyones stomachs. But let me tell you I utterly hate throwing up and that is a understatement I do not see how anyone can enjoy to do it. It makes you feel so miserable and you can not help but just cry afterwards. But since the last couple of days I feel so much better almost back to normal thank goodness. What else has been going on in my life for the past week and a half. I bet I could not have done it with the great people you took care of me and you know who you are

Well even though I would love to have something to talk about, I can't just that I am so ready for school to be all over. I mean it is November, getting cold whinding down on the semester so that means I am ready for it to be break. Even though my classes have not been so bad thus far, it would actually be nice to catch a break once in a while you know? I am guessing a lot of students in college is also thinking the same way. Who know that might be the reason I see less in less people in my everday classes, as they days go on.

In other news I am so exicited that it is two weeks away from today that the new Harry Potter movie comes out to the United States. I have been waiting for that day as long as I can remember knowing that they were going to film the movie. The only thing I am not so exicited about it worrying if they will do the book justice. But I know I will disappointed in some expect because it is a common fact usually movies are not as good as the books because when you read a book you can use your own intermitation not some one elses. But in that, that does not mean I think the movie will be terrible. I am guessing that it will be one of my favorite movies of all time putting part 1 and part 2 together. Which I would conclude it is going to make a whole bunch of money.

Can You Say A Busy Week?

Well it is me again, I almost did not have time to write a blog this week because I have been so busy, well sit back and I will tell you about it.

Wow this week has probably been the most busiest week I have ever had in a long long time for a number of things. This week started the horiffic week of studying and tests. I never knew how much work I had to do, this week in particular. The only complaint I really have is college seems that everything happens in one week. Or in just in a matter of a couple days, which totally causes stress for a lot of college students. Like all the professors get together to see how much they can f-over there students having things due on the same day. I just totally can not wait for this semester to be over, I have no clue why but this semester has seemed long than any other one than I have had in my college career. Maybe it is because from switching my major to nursing into education I learned I have 3 or 4 more years to go after this one. Including after this year it will be my third year in college. It just seems to me that I will be in school forever, and I totally do not want that. If I just would have known this when I first started out who knows I could be about done by now depending on a couple of things.

Along with school stuff the weekend was also a long one, my girlfriend's cousins stayed at her house for the weekend thursday- sunday. Wow what a weekend, I consider myself to get a long with kids, or I am really okay with them. But after this weekend I finally found out I am totally not ready to have kids, not even close. They are a lot of work I found out just babysitting or helping to babysit for a couple of days. Just the little of things wanted me just to choke them out even if that sounds horribly of me. I hope my kids do not act, the way those kids did, actually mine will not. I guess I was lucky in having parents that were strict and did not let me get away with things and/or baby me. Lets just say those four days even being there for a couple hours I had terrible headaches. Do not get me wrong that does not mean I hate kids, obviously if I am going to education I will have to love them and I do. But its different when you can discipline them and can gain there respect.

But this weekend was not all bad, I went with my girlfriend to wedding, and I have to say I actually had a blast. It was nice for us to get out of tuscarawas county and actually do something different. It made me realize that I love her even more, because I totally had fun and I do not like weddings very much. But this time it was totally different. Mere it being a wedding the highlight was dancing at the reception was slow dancing. I do not know why but it is something that I enjoy , probably because my life up to this point I haven't slow danced with someone that I really loved and that made it really special. I never wanted it to end, just paused in that moment forever.

Well I think that is it for now, at the moment sorry if this was all over the place. My blog is not called Mitchell's Random Thoughts for nothing, you know I am beginning to like this blogging thing even if no one would read it, it is nice to get my thoughts down in writing, and say things that I could not really tell anyone but myself. Until next time..

The Recent Year Pt. 2

As promised here is the second part of the two part blog of The Recent Year. So basically a certain someone has kept me very very happy for the past couple of months well right now it will be five months since I am writing this right now. Who is this person you ask? How did you meet? What makes her so great? Well hopefully by the end of this blog I will have answered all your questions that you have.

Firstly the person that I am dating is Ashley Cozart, what is amazing and shocking to people that do not know is, I have known Ashley for a long long time around six years. Because are brothers used to play on the same summer baseball team for years. So I was around her a lot more than I really knew or even thought about. Through this six years I only really knew the face not the person because quite simply I was to afraid to go up and talk to her. Quite simply because I am totally a shy person, I also have been and that shyness will also be inside me one way or another. Looking back it was funny how we got together; it makes me seem like it all had to line up completely and I am so glad that it did looking back. Basically the story is that she " was trying to get a hold of my mom" because my mom and I changed cell phone numbers because I was getting a new phone. But later I found out that it was a plan that she had, and the rest is history I began to get to know her a lot more and soon found that I liked her more than a friend.

I would have to admit at first I was afraid to get back into a relationship with someone because I did not want to hurt anyone any more. Just one day I just decided if she would go out with me, even though I was really nervous I was hoping for the best. But just after a day or two going out with her everything that I felt changed quite differently. I soon learned that she was everything that I loved in a person. She was and still is as amazing when I first started talking to her. Ashley is well I will tell you as much as I can explain. She is beyond amazing in every way possible, she actually really cares about my emotions and what I am feeling, wants me to do things that are best for me even if it might hurt later. She has a awesome personality, she makes me laugh a whole bunch to the point that I can not breathe, it is a major turn on for someone that can make me laugh. Also she will stop everything to do anything for me, to getting me a drink to making me dinner when her parents are still at work. Also that she loves me for me, not someone that I am not. There is a whole bunch of other things that I really do not have time to write on here until I want to write 8 pages worth.

But telling you that, I love her very very much I never realized how much I would really loved her until I had her. Every time I am around her or every time I see her I get those nervous butterflies in my stomach. I love being around her, I could honestly hang out with her 24/7 and never get sick of her. I do not know about anyone else but that is the true definition of love. I also know that she feels the same way about me to without any question in my mind. What is a great thing, knowing you are loved by someone really really much. Everything thus far has been far beyond amazing, not once have we really have gotten in a fight or really had an argument. Makes me think that we will last a long long time and that is what I want more than anything.

Today will be five months for her and I, and it just seems so much longer like I have been going out with her for years. I guess that is a good thing right? I mean how couldn't it. I just hope and pray the rest of this year goes as planned as I would like it. Because in many ways it has been amazing.

The Recent Year Pt. 1

Even though I really have not have had a blog before, I finally decided that I should start to write one, I mean hey why not; what is there to lose. Before I was hesitant because I do not have the best grammar in the world everyone that reads my writing can tell you that. But along with that I really have not much to blog about, but I finally think I can sit here and talk to the cyber world about my life in short. I should tell you all I do not know how often I will blog on here, but I am going to try to find time to blog every week or every other week. Well with that intro lets get started shall we:

How is my life going for me at this certain point in my life? , well it is funny that you asked that because my life right now could not be better. I am so thankful for that because my life has not always been like that, my life has changed so much even in this current year. If many do not know about me in February of this week I broke up with my long time girlfriend of one year and nine months. That was by far the lowest part of my life on so many levels maybe someday I will go in some detail about it but right now it is just so hard. But what I can tell you that it was the hardest decision in my life that caused me to break up with this specific person because quite simply I was in love . Even though I did not want to do it at the time sitting here thinking about it 8 months later I can fully say it was the best decision for me to make.

But with that I didn’t do it alone I had help my most of all with my family, they told me things or let me see taking a step back on how things were going and if I wanted to live the rest of my life with that. But really honestly for the longest time I would not listen to them because I thought in my heart that specific person was not like that. Over time I began to see that and I knew that I had to get out of that relationship and I am happy that I did get through the most stressful time in my life. It got so bad at times that I begun to get cold sore after cold sore knowing what I should do. But I finally decided to end it, after countless weeks not knowing what I was going to do.

When I did I would never have guessed how I would feel, it hurt me more than I will ever know it seemed like months , but getting me through it was God, and my fantastic family and friends. If it was not for them I would have never have gotten through it. It is true when they say if you try hard enough you can get through anything I am just happy that I had people around me to keep me a float. I never would have gotten through it by myself at any measure. Do I have any regrets about that relationship do you ask? Not at all I usually do not have a lot of regrets in my life, this is how I see it its mere it is an experience that teaches you how to become an adult,part of growing up. I am totally grateful that I went through all of it because I totally believe that I have grown so much as a person really. It is true when they say everything happens for a reason, to explain it more clearly I believe God did have a plan for me but I did not know what that was yet but I totally did trust him.

Proverbs 3:5 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

With that, it showed me, if I had a group of people that would help me with hard decisions It humbled me because it showed that I really do have those people that care about me. Even though breaking up with her it made me a single guy and made me question if I would ever be happy with someone; what I did not know in just a matter of months, my life would be turned upside down again for the better.

Coming up next: The Recent Year Pt 2